PEOPLE ARE DUMB BITCHES THAT NEVER EVER CHANGE

I'm sitting in my room so fucking mad rite now i could just rip out my hair on the Verge of crying my eyes out because i know it's better than yelling and screaming at every single person in my house. As i sit up against my blue wall in my room wondering what the fuck I'm going to do, while procrastinating for finals, the amazing Chelsea Wells pops into my brain and say "blog". I talked to Chelsea yesterday when the seniors came back into adv drama and she said " T-dunc why the fuck haven't you blogged" my response "i been busy". i have found myself really getting upset easily lately and not being able to shake that sense of rage i feel and i hadn't pondered why until just now when i said to myself shit i haven't blogged in 2 weeks. blogging has been a legit escape for me whether i post it or not, i have been able to focus, do better in school, and not self destruct because blogging has let me escape from myself and the reality of my life which i most the time HATE. it's crazy that something so simple as writing just whatever the fuck is on your mind can really release who you are. All the thought i have in my mind, the feelings, the worries can all be let out here and then i feel free. idk I'm just blown away that this one little thing on the Internet had i found sooner could of stopped my breakdown, my freak outs, my self destruction and stopped me from doubting me. it so cool to go on here spell shit wrong curse lay your feeling all out there and not care if someone reads it or comments it or hates it. but back to the topic at hand people are dumbass bitches. i cannot STAND how ignorant and stupid WE as a human race are. we treat each other like shit, hate one another behind each others back, and really take each other for granted. Sometimes i sit back and just feel sad for some the people in this school and leaving this school. Some don't even know what haveing a true friend is , what a caring person looks like, or even ever actually meant "how are you doing" when they asked someone. There so artificial and plastic and stupid. I get so frustrated because there is more to life the manhattan beach or hermosa beach or whatever fucking beach you live in. there are people starving for the scraps you throw away at dinner, great minds rotting because there not given a chance at a good education, young spirits dieing because they have accepted there is nothing better for them than there current misery, people wishing they could live in a town where the cheapest house is 1 million dollars there are people dieing for a chance at success why those people piss it away. one these days by the time they realize all the good things they have got it going 2 b 2 late. people take there lives there money there cars all for granted but what we take for granted the most is each other. i don't give fuck if this sounds cocky or arrogant since i'm such an arrogant asshole as it is which i still don't get but someone will miss me someone will have taken my love and friendship for granted and will miss it. i know i have so much to give to the world and i don't believe i would be going through the hell i have been through my whole life if there wasn't a purpose for me. but people take what i can give for granted all the time whether it b help with this or that or even a smile and by the time they realize that they took me for granted my wall will already be built 12 feet high against them and the cries for help will no longer be heard. because i cried for help or a hand to hold while i walked through hell and they weren't there because they knew i would always be there. So whoever reads this random ,long. pure venting. poorly edited blog please don't take the people in your life for granted because they could be gone tomorrow