Heartache and pain are what he feels
Could the cruel words he hear really be real
"Your nothing your no one just another nigga to me everything you are is what i made you 2 be"
Words that hit through his flesh and all
They hit him so hard he just fallls
into a train of thought that these words might be true
the insecurities he has tried to hide everyone could now see through
They see the depression, rage , anger, and hate
they see they envy and the lust to find an unsure fate They see the lost boy that doesn't want to go home at night
To a drunken father and another fight
To a home so broken it doesn't hold him at night instead only haunted dreams of an out of control fight
A place that he remembers was once filled with love
but with ever bottle swished it flew away as a dove
He tries to fight using the knowledge he was blessed with
but in the situation the knowledge is only a myth
for no book taught him how to grow up so fast
when he s put in situations that will forever haunt his past
He chooses to cut into his heart and take his father completely out
The good the bad everything and chooses to reroute
with the cutting he determines a new route to take o
out of this road that made his skin so thick
out of this road that made him sick
out of this road with another FUCKING challenge that was suppose to make him stronger
out of this road of constant forgiving of someone he could take no longer
out of this road that made him feel like everyone was out to get him
out of this road of not letting anyone in to see the real him
out of a rough life that no one ever nor will ever really know
out of a rough life that he never thought would get so low
for on this new road the past lurks no more
only greatness and the wanting to be free and sore
for he wants to be happy have friends and always smile
even if it is only for a brief short while
people will never understand the struggle he has faced
or the nightmares he wished he could erase
or why he's get mad and has an attitude all the fucking time
but it's all just a protective wall that he's finally going to let down f
or once in his life to see who would come around
see what friends are found to be right
a friend to be with and treat him right
for a true friend had always been a myth
never around because they never exist
but he's ready to move forward into a brighter day
one that someday will take him far far away
Now that you've seen just a glimpse of his life
maybe you will understand why he must always fight
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