feeling alone

a feeling that leaves you hot and cold at the same time
a feeling that leaves you so hurt inside it fucks up your mind and body
a feeling that haunts you in your happiest moments yet never lets you forget your worst
a feeling so dark and empty that no light is ever seen upon your face
a feeling that leaves you breathless but wanting you to stay that way
a feeling that the slitting of wrist can't even make you stop feeling
a feeling of looking in the mirror praying that finally there is no reflection
a feeling of being in the most crowded room yet feeling that no one is there with you
a feeling that makes you want to sleep but never awake from that sleep again
a feeling of looking at the sun yet only seeing rain
a feeling of never seeing the flowers grow only watching them die
a feeling that leaves you wishing your own little corner was a little smaller
a feeling wanting you to cling to others but making you realize theres no one there
a feeling that to many hear about yet none listen to
a feeling of fear and anxiety from feeling fear and anxiety
a feeling of knowing tomorrows coming but wanting it only to stay away
a feeling that makes the same moment that took your breath away leave you gasping for air
a feeling of no love or support that no one should ever have to feel
a feeling i know all to well yet no one knows that feeling lives inside of me .