wondering

our librarian is such a fucking dick. He bitches at you for not having a note from your teacher when you need 2 print 1 fucking thing or copy one piece of paper that takes 2 seconds. He always seems like he is fighting back showing an emotion either anger, fear, sorrow something. I wonder if he tries so hard to control everything and keep everything neat and in line because his life has been the total opposite messy, complicated, and out of control. As i sit here in the library 4th period procrastinating on doing the research i am actually supposed to be doing i look at this man and just wonder. WHo could of made him such an angry little man. What made him want to spend the rest of his life monitoring 9th graders watching porn on the Internet or wasting his time teaching students who don't care how to use search engines when 99% of them are just going to use google or yahoo anyway. who needs to control every little thing in there life to keep sane. If he has kids are they as confined as his library is his wife, or boyfriend, kept on such a short leashe or does he overcompinsate for not being able to control these thing or people, if they exsist in his life, by controlng everything else in his life to a T. But that all we can ever really do as observers of other peoples life is think, wonder , speculate, because the truth is we never really know what someone is thinking or has just thought of how they really feel. We never know what they have been through or are going through, or what they are avoiding. But yet we judge and wonder and come to our own conclusions on what we think there life is when it may not hurt to just mind your own business or ask sometimes eople need to let others into there life to truely complete it. Bell about to ring god how i love to blog